Well, remember all that blog post material that I had thought up while I couldn't sleep the other night? Well, after finding the piece of paper I had written it all down on I decided that I don't really want to write about them now. What a waste of time that was! Well, I might still write about one of them in a few weeks, but we'll see...
Anyway, there is a girl in one of my linguistics classes who has kind of caught my eye lately. She was actually in one of my linguistics classes last semester too; she sat across the room from me, but she didn't really strike my fancy until recently. But rather than go talk to her like a normal person would, I decided to take what little I knew about her and try to find out more on the internet. Name? I had no idea, not even a guess. Major? Well, I was guessing she was probably a linguistics major because I knew that this was at least her second linguistics class. That's about all I knew. Unfortunately, I couldn't really conceive of any smooth way that I could sit by her and strike up a witty conversation because it would require me moving pretty far away from my usual seat and it would be totally obvious to almost anyone who sits on that side of the classroom. So what was I to do? Talking to her after class would also be way too forward...
Then I thought, "this is a job for facebook; a.k.a. stalkerbook." It may sound bad to some people to stalk classmates on online networking sites, but really that is almost exactly what they are designed for. Also, if she doesn't want people stalking her on facebook, there are plenty of ways for her to keep people from doing just that. Also, it is really just a time and energy saver because I can find out a lot of important things from facebook without the anxiety of having to strike up a conversation with her; such things as if she is single or not, what things she is interested in, what kinds of friends she has, etc... Of course I would then have to pretend like I didn't already know these things when I actually DID strike up with a conversation with her later...
So I got on Facebook hoping that she would have listed herself as being in that class. That would be best because I didn't even know her name, so it would be hard to find her unless she was on the class roster on facebook. Unfortunately, she wasn't there. After a few different attempts to find her on stalkerbook, I was about to give up. It seemed that she was one of the few college students without a facebook profile, or perhaps she was just really hard to find. It seemed that if I wanted to find out anything about her that I might have to actually talk to her somehow...
But then as my teacher was handing back homework assignments today he called out her name and I took a mental note and after class I got on facebook and found her! Yay! But, her profile is private so I could see nothing but her majors. Turns out she is a linguistics and Spanish major, so that's cool. But really I was hoping that the internet would provide me with more information about her... maybe I'll still have to actually talk to her face to face like a normal human... or maybe I'll just forget about it. haha. She's probably evil anyway...
The video that I was thinking of putting up today got taken off of YouTube for copyright infringement... stupid copyrights. I don't care about copyrights, I just want to watch videos and listen to music for free, damnit! Anyway, hopefully someone else will re-post that video again and I'll put it up. Luckily there are lots of other videos to choose from, and this one is pretty good too. I never really was an All American Rejects fan, but then I found this video, Move Along and I've probably watched this video or listened to this song like 30 times in the past two days because I love it. I wish I could have rock-star hair like the lead singer in this video. But Ding and I were talking about how neither of us would look as good with hair like that as he does. So I guess I'll just stick with the boring buzz cut...
5 comments:
I think that getting comfortable approaching and starting conversation with the opposite sex is alot like (for most people anyway) like getting comfortable with starting to talk to people in a new language you are just starting to learn. Most people seem sort of shy and self-conscious when they start doing it. But the more you do it the easier it becomes and the more comfortable you get with that initial discomfort or fear of being embarrased or obvious. I dont know if you ever felt that way when you were first learning Spanish or not, but if you did, you can use that to imagine that just pushing through it and talking to lots of women will help it become just as casual for you as speaking in languages is for you now. Try thinking about talking to girls as if it was just you speaking to non-girls in a new language you are learning. Maybe that would make it seem less threatening or embarrasing.
I know this because 1) I too have a hard time getting myself to just go ahead and talk to girls I like and 2) I know that I'm way too self-conscious to try talking to ANYONE in Spanish so far. So, to me, they seem like the same problem - fear of feeling stupid. But in my case, so far, I'm more comfortable feeling stupid from coming on to girls I like than I am from trying to talk mangled Spanish.
Whatever ......
I guess I hadn't thought about it like that. But I guess I also feel like there isn't pressure to be smart/funny/witty when I'm speaking a foreign language like there is when I'm talking to a girl.
Try googling her. First put her name in quotes, and if that does come up with anything, try without quotes. I've done some stalking in my day.
Oh yeah, I tried that too; no luck...
Just talk to her! Gosh!
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